2018 Word Of The Year
How do you feel about New Year’s resolutions and when people do words or phrases of the year? I do both of these things and really enjoy them. I make resolutions and goals that I want to work on for the year. I also pick a word of the year to focus on. Some people think it’s hokey and others go all in. I’m in the middle where I don’t find it hokey but I do use it to kind of help keep me on track and grounded for the year.
For 2018, my word of the year is Vulnerable.
And it has two components.
- Being more personal and sharing my journey.
- Taking more risks and doing things that scare me.
Being More Personal
It’s really hard for me to open up and share personal things. I don’t do it unless I really really REALLY trust someone. And it takes me a very long time to get to that point. I have three people in my life right now that I fully trust where I can share more personal stuff. Everything else I keep behind several walls. The flip side of that is I will listen to you and be very open to hearing what you’re going through. And I will keep everything tucked in with me, I don’t share other people’s stuff. I’m great at listening and helping someone through a challenging time.
No one wants to be judged. Or made fun of. Or disregarded. Especially for things that they might be going through and struggling with personally. All of which has happened to me in the past and because of that I shut people out. It’s a hell of a lot easier to keep stuff to myself and stay strong verses taking the risk of opening up only to have it come back to hurt me later.
This year, I’m looking to change that and open up a bit more.
I know that I’m not alone in the health struggles that I’m going through right now. I know that my story, while mine, isn’t completely unique.
But this blog is supposed to be more personal. It’s supposed to be about life, my life, and what I’m doing to make it better. I can’t really do that unless I get a little bit more personal and let down some walls.
For me, this is such a huge risk. Everything is screaming at me telling me to not do this. Yet, there is this small part of me that says, “No, you have to do this. In order to provide support to others, you have to be willing to share your story.”
Because I want to support you for what you might be going through, I’m going to work towards being a little bit more open and sharing my journey.
It’s going to be hard. It’s going to take me a while to get there. But stay with me and we can help each other.
Sometimes in life we take the safe path. Or do things because that’s what society tells us that we should be doing. I can be guilty of that and I really need to stop and focus on me. I need to get to a solid place where I don’t care what others think and I do my own thing.
This year along with opening up more and sharing more of my personal journey, I’m also going to be taking steps that are going to better my life and my family’s life.
Last year was rough and I feel like I didn’t focus enough on my health. This year that all needs to change and I need to take steps that will help me get healthy again.
But I also need to be willing to take risks and do things that scare me a little bit. Our big move to Boise is one of those things. We need a change and I really feel like this move is going to be the best for our family right now. It was a huge decision but we feel at peace with it (aside from the stress of trying to get a million things done before we leave!).
So I’m going to be doing things that make me more vulnerable. Yeah, that’s scary AF and of course I have reservations. But I can’t grow as a person nor can I reclaim my health if I’m not willing to open up a bit first.