One Step Forward, Three Steps Back
The past few weeks have been a little bit rough for me. My health seems to be taking a nose dive and it’s just leaving me frustrated and annoyed.
If you watch my stories on Instagram, you’ll know that I had started running again (I feel like I say this every few months or so). I ran twice and haven’t run since because of how shitty I feel. I don’t think running was the cause, I think it’s just a weird coincidence.
I’m not sure if I had a flare up with Hashi’s or what is going on. For several weeks I had serious brain fog, was fatigued, and ridiculously tired. All I wanted to do was sleep. I could not wait to get into bed at the end of the evening (and that’s still going strong!) and sleep. I woke up tired and was tired throughout the day.
I was also doing battle with a sore throat. Sometimes I get cold like symptoms right around ovulation during my cycle. This is a new thing that just started over the past two years. It’s weird and I never know which it’s going to be (meaning, I can’t be certain it’s not a cold just because I’m ovulating. Yes I always know when I’m ovulating, more on that another time) so I treat it like the beginning stages of a cold.
This lasted for weeks! Eventually I got some semblance of energy back but was still dealing with that sore throat. Now it only shows up every few days which is just so weird.
I’m also have digestive issues all of the sudden. I’m bloated all the time, gassy, and making way too many bathroom stops.
All of this can be considered TMI but I really don’t care. This blog is also supposed to be a way for me to document my health and how I’m working towards overcoming that. Part of the process, y’all. And chances are someone else might be dealing with the same thing and looking for a safe space and some connection.
I also have zero motivation and desire to do anything. I’m pretty much MEH about life and everything right now. I basically don’t give a shit. About anything. Which means that I’m in a small depressive funk and I need to get myself out of it.
One of the things that needs to be done to help get the adrenals back on track is to reduce stress. However, when you’re sick, that causes stress and frustration. Not only mental stress but physical stress as well. Since my body isn’t healthy it’s going to be stressed out. Oh, it’s a vicious cycle.
All of that bitching to say, I’m taking a break from everything and going back to basics. What I know that makes me feel good.
I’m taking a break from supplements aside from the ones I know that I really need.
B12, Magnesium, and some D3.
I’m just going to eat and eat well. No following a plan. No weighting, measuring, or counting anything. Just food that I know will nourish me and makes me feel good. Sure I may sneak in some sushi or something, but it’s not like I’m going to faceplant into a bag of Doritos and get shitfaced on bourbon. Know what I mean?
Part of getting myself out of this funk is that I need to mindfully move my body and get outside. Maybe that means a short run or maybe that means a walk. But I need to force myself to get moving and get some fresh air.
Yes, I’m doing this on my own right now. We’re in the middle of moving and I really don’t want to look for another doctor until we are settled somewhere. So for now, I’m just going to focus on the things that I can control and work towards getting myself better.